Friday, September 07, 2007
Tight, tight circles
Why can't I get into a situation and be at peace? Job, class, club, group, friendship, whatever, I will torment myself and twist myself up in it until I would rather die than face it. Rules I don't enforce, standards I don't uphold, something always that makes me feel INVALID. Powerless. I fuck around, being weak, until I am completely powerless. Sometimes its real, sometimes its imagined, but I always decide that I have done wrong and have no say. WHY? And how do I fix it? More therapy? Move? Quit? Die?
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